A Visit from the Lulls

As someone who has many ups and downs in their life and energy, I have started to refer to the "downs" in my life as "The Lulls."

The Lulls have arrived in my life for a visit. I know they are just passing through, but I never know how long they are going to stay. Is it just a pop in visit, or will they stay for a longer stint?

I get so impatient and frustrated with them when they are here. Why can't they just leave? They always bring gloom and darkness and know how to push all of my buttons.

Or perhaps a button was already pressed - like a silent alarm that called to them like a bat signal in the first place.

Maybe I have it all wrong. Maybe I think that the Lulls are what cause the disruption and darkness, but perhaps they arrive because they know something is off and they are here to help and comfort me.

Perhaps they are trying to slow me down and get me to be still.

Perhaps they have a message for me.

Instead, I ignore them and try to rush them out of the house. That is likely the opposite of what they want. Perhaps that is precisely what makes them linger longer.

Lulls, I am here to listen. What do you have to tell me?

My Mind's Gatekeeper

Today I met my mind's gatekeeper. I saw her open a door to my skull and all thoughts were released back to "the grid." It was beautiful. She told me that I am the one who has been keeping the door shut with all thoughts lingering inside my brain. She could open it for me at any time and the thoughts would clear back out to the grid whenever I would like.

I kept coming back to that visualization, and then a thought would creep back in and be in my brain room again. So I would open the door again.

At first, the gatekeeper said her role was, "doorman." As time passed, she made me realize there is no door... my mind has more of a mesh top spanning as a dome where my skull is. The thoughts don't need to go through a door, they can flow in and out from anywhere in my mind. Not that the thoughts can flow freely a they wish, but I can help select when to pull stuff down from the grid, and easily release those thoughts back out.

The scene looked like a mesh-top tent underneath the stars. The thoughts were like constellations in the night's sky, going back to their home when they are done in my mind. Only to be pulled down from the sky again when and if I need that information.

Thank you dear gatekeeper. With love and gratitude. Thank you for all that you do.

Daily Intention - January 18, 2020

Be gentle. Just be gentle. That is all... and have fun :)